I lost my sister when I was 18. I’ve had my ex cheat on me two weeks after moving in together in a foreign country.
I have struggled with anxiety and low self-esteem in recent years. My social skills have dropped way below average – at its worst, it probably looked like autism.
I have been on welfare for over 5 years – due to not being able to land a job. I have lost a lot of friendships, making me a loner.
But one of my biggest personal struggles has been dealing with schizophrenia. In 2017 I experienced acute psychosis and was put into the emergency department for mental health. For the last three years I’ve been on heavy medication for both depression and psychosis. At rock bottom, I developed agoraphobia.
And I want to share with you today – except for losing my sister, I would not have it any other way!
The loss of my sister made me for the first time, get in touch with my emotional inner world realizing I had a lot of work to do – while everyone around me showed sorrow, I went along with a stiff upper lip thinking I was strong and manly.
My personality lacked development in essential areas. Contrary to beliefs from the manosphere, men need to allow themselves to feel and not simply repress emotions.
The infidelity of my second girlfriend made a huge blow to my ego. What would my friends and acquaintances think? Why. She was the prettiest girl I had been with at that time and even my closest friends wondered how I had been able to land someone outside of my league. My status-oriented ego loved it – up until she monkey branched to an older more successful man.
I realized I had little to no experience with meeting new women. I was completely alone and felt like a loser. I made a friend at the local skate park and opened up to him about my situation. He recommended I watch RSD Blueprint. My first encounter with pick-up material.
It took me more than one year to see any progress in my dating life. But I went all in and continued to go out almost every weekend for 4 years. After getting the one night stands and experiencing flings, I felt that I had successfully achieved progress in that part of my life I also realized that I am happier being alone than in a partnership. I wanted to expand my self-development journey.
Over time one thing led to another and I found myself reading about finances and business success. My hatred for books and reading was replaced with enthusiasm.
After being on welfare for a few years I realized I had to start my own business as an entrepreneur doing the things I love arts, music, and blogging. This website is one of the areas in my financial journey. I want to be of service to like-minded individuals out there, and hopefully share some wisdom.
One of my biggest challenges up to date has been dealing with mental issues. It has truly softened my ego and pride, along with making me realize the importance of family and close friendships.
Over the last 10 years, I have been digesting self-development material and taking action. I have gotten back in touch with some old friendships and realized that they are the same person they were in their early 20’s. Sure they have started families and chosen the 9-5 life. But at what cost? They have had zero development in crucial areas of life. They are content with mediocrity.
My suffering in life invited me to become a better son, brother, friend, and businessman. It has made me look at the meaning of integrity and morals. It has opened me up to the joys of working towards goals.
Had it not been for the dark periods I would have never started the exciting journey of becoming a better human being! So for all of you people out there suffering, realize that it can be a catalyst for reaching a higher plateau in life. Use the suffering as fuel.
Until next time – Bogdan